it was much of a howl that i could hear, and he was still howling...
i went through the door and shooed him off, and off he ran, like he had seen the devil in me, how could i let her be disturbed, i cared for her a lot, wish i could tell her that.
i came back into the room where she lay so peacefully, i was awed at the serenity she had on her face, but how long would it last...? my mind was wandering here and there filled with thoughts, still tryin to fight back, still not ready to accept the idea that if you are fighting to live then its better to die, and there i was fighting against time as the clock sped past me at twice the speed, i found myself standing in this dark room right next to her as she had stood by my side for so long, i sat next to her with all the memories swarming in my head, almost gave me a headache to which i was accustomed. then suddenly i said to myself," why is it so cold in here? its august for god's sake." i still had that sinking feeling inside of me cos i failed to tell her how much i cared and how much i loved, but i never really showed that.
was it too late? will she hate me like she did. wished i could change somethings before leaving so that she
could tell everyone how i was, how i lived, and how i died tryin....!
please pray to the great lord for my soul...
RIP